And so yesterday we had coconut milk, cendol, and gula melaka.

we tried to make cendol the sweet thing we eat. however it turned out bad. we didn’t filter the coconut milk so the top layer kept coagulating and we didn’t add ice and water, so it was thick and the proportion of the sugar , milk and water never turned out right. but anyway i ate two bowls of it. leo leo had one and he was complaining that his stomuch started to give noises. i think he affected us psychologically, so dee and me felt the same too. but no purging happened the next day. hehehehe.

Today supposed to be making people happy but i think i didn’t do it well because i was a bit disoriented due to the festive feelings and atmosphere of the Hari Raya. Mom came home while i was sleeping. dad come home early. usually during the festives times, both of them will be back early feeling tired but smiling and i would usually feel disoriented because the presence of my parent at unsual time disrupts my flow of doing things and i start to feel sick.

Happy raya every badi!

Ever since i started sitting or lying down most of the time, i get tired and sleepy easily. Just by doing some tiny bit of work like maybe watching a movie in the cinema can really drain my energy or maybe the movie was just simply boring.

Anyway, i am waiting for my friend online because he told me to. but but he is not here.. i dunno where did he go..

this weekend was quite some weekend. went for a BBQ party and also for a play at KLPAC. I feel tired. It was nice but i would prefer if i get to spend time with my family. I didn’t really get to really look at them during this weekend. And i am here now, staring at this laptop screen.

Anyway i don’t really like blogging any more especially in my shared blog because people do read my post and start to critisize my point of views and thinking. last time there were no such thing, because i guess not many serious people were hanging around my blog. But as a big girl already, critiques are meant to be taken positively. So yea i try, unless i feel people are trying to pull me down. Haha there are many people like those in this world, talking like they understand, giving you opinions which may not be even true also, just trying to tell you that you will die chasing what you want or something like that.

To win, we must know no fear!

I am supposed to be sleeping now, but instead i am here staring into the empty space here, trying to fill it up with words.

The truth is I am bored and i don’t want to sleep. I have been acting quite weird lately.

Hmmm. Hellu little friendster bloggie. I tried to change my blog’s header but i just couldn’t find for the right one. It doesn’t feels perfect. I tried the dingdong cat, ultraman, eyes, tears, sun, star, sad, happy, deep in thought, but none of them fit into the concept of this thing.

It doesn’t feels frustrating but feels quite nice, it is like trying to find for the perfect one. Trying to see if I can express it in different ways.

And why is it that dee and me is so similar in so many ways but yet different in so many ways as well.

It is actually nice to stay up late because it is peaceful but then it is depressing when you think of the effects toward our health if we always sleep late. But about 95% of the people whom i know sleeps after 1am. I know two friends who sleeps around 10 pm. And they are smart people. Brilliant people. Haha, but not to say others are stupid. Maybe there is a link some where.

Oh no, I am getting sleepy already..

But i want to see the world sleep before me.. It feels like I am flying over the cities and watching the cities light switched off one by one. Then the wind will be blowing at me.. blowing my curls.. and i fly to the moon and sit on it just like how Dreamworks do it and watch the stars..

And i have a harp. So I play the harp. And i have the nice eerie but also a comforting voice singing for the peaceful night to stay and be my company…

I have a baby. His name is monmon. But I am not his biological mom, but he doesn’t calls me mommy. he calls me sister.

I get many emails and read many articles about cramps on your lucky day. mom says drink warm milk, my teacher said eat more primrose oil, i prefer to put a bottle of warm water on the affected area, or prick my finger with a needle so that the pain on my finger will be stronger than the cramps so i forget about the cramp and focus on the pain on the finger and start to think how to stop the bleeding instead.

Hahaha.

That is so not true. i don’t do that. But i think some people actually do that. But the last thing i will do is eating pain killers.

Today is a very hot day. On a very hot day, you would usually want to bathe with cold water. But i bathed with hot water in the middle of a hot day. It felt so good.

It is like a very warm thing going around your body and warms your muscles and ease the pain.

And the pain left. It was like magic!

It would have been even better if i have a bath tub and filled it up with very warm water and add some tea leaves and soak in it. I will smell like tea!

Since when did friendster change my blog design. So ugly. Boring blue. At least now i added some fishes which i have bought during pasar malam yesterday. Cool right? But i have to feed them.

haha it has been a long time since i last updated this blog. My life should had been pretty ‘occupied’, but no!

It is quite occupied in a way. I don’t exactly just sit down and wait for every minute to pass by. That is stupid.

I just love teevee. teevee is the coolest thing in the world. I just love fantasy movies. Love movies are boring but i still watched them maybe it is because i am a girl.

Then i love doing my photo album, but i stop few days because too bored keep doing the same thing over and over again. I haven’t started on my redang photos yet. I wanna make it lovely. My redang photos give me a lot of memories. Although we went there in a big group, most of the time, i remember being quite alone. I remember walking by the beach alone early morning, see people jog pass me, couple hold hand walk pass me as well. haha i wasn’t jealous. I felt quite content, being alone, just absorbing the beauty of the scene. Then i started picking up rubbish floating on the sea water, or on the beach. then clement saw me and joined me. then i remember asking him if he was having fun but he said no. haha. so funny. funny because i like doing what people don’t like to do. The sea water was nice. It was clear, and it wasn’t deep, the water level was just above the ankle. I like to run and the jump and fly for one or two seconds! hehehe. so free. But gravity pulled me down.

Then at night, zhiwei and dee and me follow dawson, clem and his gang walk along the beach. Zhi and me went crazy. We jumped here and hide here and there. trying to disturb the guys, but they don’t wanna choi us. Instead they dumped us. Then we found them at Laguna Resort then 3 of us force them to play a stupid game. We had this deck of cards, so we make all the cards face down. Then each of us got to pick one card. who gets the hihgest value shall slap the person whom has the card of the lowest value. But the guys, i dunno la why, they didn’t cheat. But we did. So we were slapping the guys most of the time. haha. Yea it was a cheap game. 3 of us suck being good girls. zhi zhi, we suck la. But it was fun!! haha.

Most of the time zhi and us will ask each other, do what now? Some times we say lets go find for ah daw coz his room got aircond. Then we sleep on one of their beds and we think that they are very lucky because their bed got ‘luiyan mei’. So silly la. Then sometimes we say “let’s go find for clem!”, clem is a friend. not a clam. Or we say “let’s play with sand!”. Most of the time i will fight for the hammock with dee. Then got once i told zhi below her hammock got a trail of ants, so she stood up, then i took over and said “yay! i got yr hammock! the ants can’t get up here =P” Haha. so fun la. then she gimme one face, its like a smile but its not a smile, more like ‘char u very bad’ kind of face.

Surprisingly i didn’t write all these in my diary.

haha yesterday we went for a karaoke session. Ivan will be leaving Msia for his studies. So we went sing sing to be happy happy with him before he go lor. Clem came as well. leo leo took us there. it was fun!! never sang so crazily before. nearly lost my voice. i love singing ‘mencintaimu’ by kris dayanti. Very nice and emo song, but dee and me sing very sumbang. hehe but still fun trying. i wanna cry when i hear this song. So long never had fun like yesterday! ivan belanja me some more belanja he got JPA scholarship hehehehe. He will be a some one very big next time. So as zhulian. what will i be next time? i dunno. i am so excited for dee!!

haha actually this post has no objective. i just miss writing here.

Next week will be hari raya week. i wonder what can i do. i thought of exploring caves or something like that. hmmm.