I feel so depressed. They just suddenly came and flooded me. Maybe its due to other reasons too. But depressed also not until its suicidal. i feel like laughing now. see me go crazy. heeeeheee heee. I felt so irritated just now. I really hate so much when some one do something i don’t like to me when i am so pissed. argh! maybe that is why i have a tendancy to be violent this days. Its all due to bad people. bad bad people. I hate u. die. die. die. i actually wanted to write a post about how i wish to treat people nicely these days because recently, i am not myself you see. i am not the happy go lucky char. I am a depressed char. potraying an ugly side of her, but she just don’t give a damn because she is unhappy. and people make her even unhappier. she just wanna crawl into a hole again and hide so that all these evil feelings could just go away like how a tornado would just suddenly disappear. she feels so lost recently, she lost herself, her believes too. she is just simply lost. she is a wondering girl, ever so blur always think that people have evil thoughts. Don’t you think its true. The world is full of bad people, people who tries to take advantage of you, just like that day we nearly got cheated by a young boy. even good people turn bad. i dunno whats happening to me!!I dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno. sigh. All i need to do now is release my energy in a good way. i haven’t been sweating recently maybe that is why. so sanfu. I wish i can cry, but i can’t cry. i don’t have much tears. my heart is so hard, i need acid to make it create some tears for me to flow. flow like the water down the stream, so relaxing.so hard to actually write what i really wanna write here. this is a disaster. i need a doraemon to tolong me. I never want to see the word HELP anymore. brings sad memories. shoot HELP. *bang* _ELP *bang* __LP *bang bang* ____ die die die!

I wish upon a star to be myself once again when life was full of life and rainbows and chocolate trees. When birds were chirpin and clouds were blue and no bad news in this world. When life of the people were happier once again, when i was myself, a princess.

haha!