I asked my mom what would she do if her boyfriend told her that he can’t have babies..

I asked because some one in Yahoo!Answers asked about it.

She didn’t really answered my question at first, but telling me what would she look for when she choose a boyfriend. Nothing to do with the question also. Ok so i hear lor, but she always tell me, so i was kind of bored la, but she still continues with her syarat syarat to be her boyfriend la. then after she finish , then i ask her again, " so what would you do if your boyfriend cannot have babies?" then she replied my question saying that it depends on what you are looking for but she keeps beating around the bush because she feels maybe one day i might be the one thinking about this question.

One thing about me,i don’t like people to beat around the bush, i prefer them to tell me straight to the point because… I don’t know. It is just me.

Then after 15 minutes later, she said she wanna continue with my question, but i was reading a newspaper and i had no mood to go through it already since i had my answer already. But she insisted saying that she wanna teach us what to do, so i was like " aaaa.. dun wan la, enoughla, you tell me already just now, i wanna read newspaper…" but i didn’t raise my voice.

Then she started to say things like- You don’t wanna hear now, next time when i am gone you all will regret it. Hey, i got high blood pressure now, anytime soon i will be going you know. You all always go out never tell me where you go. You all don’t respect me. etc etc. Main thing is she always tell us that we’ll regret it when she dies.

OK i know i sound like i didn’t respect her. But i really couldn’t stand long conversation with my mom because she repeats stuff and it’s boring. But that doesn’t mean that i don’t respect her. Then she would always talk such things when she is not happy. And besides, where ever we go, we tell her. It’s my bro who doesn’t tell her.

Sigh, i couldn’t take it any more i just went up stairs.

She used to complain why our grandmother always talk such stuff, when she is doing it also.

Do you know how i feel? I feel angry! How can she say such things! In the house we cannot talk about topics that has to do anything with dee, me or bro dying, but she can talk about she dying. I just feel it is really evil of her to say that.

ARGH!!! I just can’t stand it!

Oh! I feel so feelingful!

I feel scared.. I never like waiting for dee’s driving class to finish and think of how will i do later. Its a torture!

I feel sweet.. after seeing my OBS pictures, the pretty scenery of the school, brings back so many sweet, really really sweet memories. Bye OBS! Thanks for the knowledge and experience that you have gave me! I love you! But it is time for me to move on now!

I feel sad..

I feel confused..

I feel touched..

There is a really heavy feeling in my heart right now.

I wish i could really do something about it.

Have you ever been addicted? How about addicted to some one?

I have, it was not a nice thing to be addicted to some one.

Well, sad to say, bad luck , curses, whatever evil vibe that is following me, well i feel i have the same old feeling coming back to me.