Dee and me felt sad we couldn’t go back to OBS this year. But seriously, I am glad we didn’t go back. Because I wouldn’t have spent so much time with my friends! My friends whom I love and care, they are special people, special people to me.

Few asked us why are we not in OB this year, I really didn’t know why also, but now i know! I have missed out being with my friends whom we only get to play every year end. Yeap, they are really sweet memories. Thinking of them just makes me smile.

I wish i can cut out that part of brain where it gives us feeling. I don’t like most of the feelings I feel except happy feeling. But if i never felt sad, i won’t know what is happy. If I don’t know what is boring, i won’t know what is interesting. But i prefer to be emotionless with a smile on my face.

I keep feeling negative feelings recently eg: sad, regret, scared, worried. Every night before i go to sleep, all these kind of memories will flood into my head. Only recently, that is why i don’t get good sleeps these few nights. Just can’t help my self.