Through science or through religion?

In my interpretation of science, it simply means physical. Science explains most of the things we see happened physically. It is straight forward and sharp. Like how rainbow is form, how your hair is caught up with the wind, why are there different shapes of clouds, why does the sun set or rise and more.

As for religion, it is more interesting to me. Religion does not really mean a religion such as Buddhism, Christianity etc, but it just simply mean seeing the world with what you believe in. Sometimes it does not mean anything to others but it meant something to you. For example a person like to go to the jungle because he feels that going to the jungle makes him feel complete, united with the surroundings. He feel rejuvenated because the jungle gives him energy. Or every time there is a thunder strike, a vampire would have been killed. Or when there is a rainbow, there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow! Some of them do sound superstitious, but lets just ignore that word for a moment.

I actually like seeing the world through religion because i see the world with colours through it. It is like every little thing that i noticed, there is a story behind it. Make life more interesting and fascinating. But some times, we have to go back to reality and not live in a world of fantasy.

But we can always interpret messages through science. See how far can your imagination go. So why does the sun rise and set? It rises because it has its responsibility to feed us all, and it sets because no matter how great the sun is, the sun needs his rest. And also because the Earth is a sphere. Haha.

Dee and me felt sad we couldn’t go back to OBS this year. But seriously, I am glad we didn’t go back. Because I wouldn’t have spent so much time with my friends! My friends whom I love and care, they are special people, special people to me.

Few asked us why are we not in OB this year, I really didn’t know why also, but now i know! I have missed out being with my friends whom we only get to play every year end. Yeap, they are really sweet memories. Thinking of them just makes me smile.

I wish i can cut out that part of brain where it gives us feeling. I don’t like most of the feelings I feel except happy feeling. But if i never felt sad, i won’t know what is happy. If I don’t know what is boring, i won’t know what is interesting. But i prefer to be emotionless with a smile on my face.

I keep feeling negative feelings recently eg: sad, regret, scared, worried. Every night before i go to sleep, all these kind of memories will flood into my head. Only recently, that is why i don’t get good sleeps these few nights. Just can’t help my self.

I’ll be doing SC next year! wee~

if you haven’t bowled for three months and you are a person who bowls every week, do not bowl three hours straight or 9 games straight. It kills. Fatal.

Now my wrist hurts, my feet going to cramp any time soon, my lap hurts so badly, running nose so runny, and i think i am going to get a fever. Luckily i didn’t lose my thumb.

Oh yea, i have a cow living infront of my house now.

One of my uncle once said we should not choose a job base on our liking but base on what we do best. Well, do you think is it true?

My parents made my siblings and i join so many things since we were young, not to find what are we good at but just to make us active and not just stay at home and watch TV.

I have joined piano lessons which was a total failure because i simply can’t read the notes. I read the numbers below the notes instead. I joined Taekwondo which i have stopped and now continue again but i suck at it. hahaha. Then we went for swimming classes, stopped until at competitive level meaning we joined competitions organized by the club. This lead us to joining a swimming life saving course few years later. Then we joined bowling because we like bowling. But 6 years in bowling with no big achievement is not a good thing. It just simply mean you have no talent and lets not waste any more time to go further.

So until now i still can’t find what am I good at. How about academics? Well, I am just an average student. So not good at studies. If I am to choose something based on what I am good at for a job, then i am in deep shit =D

But are we really supposed to find what we are really good at or just make the best out of what we have now? Well, that sounds a better option. But it would be so nice if I actually found out what i can do best but maybe i won’t like it. Things that you are good at doesn’t mean that you will like it.

So should i still search or stick to what i have now and stop complaining and shuddup? Or should I stick to what i have now and at the same time find for my hidden talent? Looks like the second choice is always the best. Yay, I have answered my own questions by blogging. How cool.

If you feel that you are having a bad luck one day, just go online and you will feel that your luck has changed. Why? All over the screen there will be pop ups telling you that you are the 99,999 visitor and you won One Million USD!! or you won an ipod or something like that.

Well actually I am just bored. I am waiting for time to pass by and go to college for TKD. I hope it will be a good training today. Let me just keep my finger cross.

It is so boring. I mean my holidays. All I will do is watch tv, study, napping and go online. Not like I have the mood to watch any movies also with my exam reminder keeps popping in my brain. Studying is ok but I feel so unlucky that now my neighbor house is under going renovation. I just have to pretend the drilling sounds are the sounds of bird chirping or the wave slapping the surface of the rocks. It’s good I have good imaginations.

But today, I am starting to like Organic Chemistry. It suddenly made sense to me after studying few months about it. I found enlightenment in organic chemistry.

After a very "hard" day studying weird things about atoms and invisible forces of the wild wild Earth, I usually go online and spend some quality time with My fluff at facebook. But recently, i just found out that it doesn’t gives me any satisfaction, instead i feel stupid wasting time with the stupid fluff, but i am going to visit it later after i am done writing this. Then online, there is nothing much to do really. Read Kennysia’s blog but I don’t find it a good blog anymore, think of things to write my shared blog, clear my mails, and just chat with my friends on Msn messenger teasing they like who who.. I know, it is very pathetic but seriously at this moment, I feel very empty.

I really want to go out, do some shopping or something more than what i am doing now. But stupid exam has tied my up to my responsibilities. I know, i can go out then come home to study but when i go out, i won’t come home again =D I am surprised how i still can hold on to this stupid nonsense.

Yea, it is actually a stupid nonsense to dee and char how we study so hard over the same thing for a few months. It’s like learning nothing new. It is not like by going through your note over and over again you will see new things, instead we just go through it just to memorize them. We can live without learning SO deeply about atomic structure or invisible forces of the wild wild Earth. Instead I like learning about survival skills more than anything else. But too bad, to know more about it I will have to join the army.

I didn’t know i can hold on to something for so long and so tight. Holding on to it is bad because I am not happy at all while holding on to it. It is sucking out the happiness out of me. And its not even real! It is all just a memory..

A big big memory. I just hope some one can erase that part of memory but it is hard because people are talking about it. How am i to forget and let go when it is constantly coming to my ears? My heart feels heavy. Some times so heavy. I just stare in the blank air trying to get through it.

I wonder when can i be free..

Malay girl: Bla bla bla bla.. c*bai bla bla
Dee: why malays like to say all those words?
char: because their malay crude words is is not as geng as our chinese crude words. Our one nicer ma. That is why they use ours.
Dee: is it?
char: ya. No other races talk about their mother except us. Niama this niama that. Very original.
dee: Really?
char: ya. so cool right?
dee: ya.

Dee and me. Tuned to the same channel recently. Both of us crave for a cup of wine lately. We barely speak, but we communicate. It wierd. It’s funny.

We eat Korean BBQ yesterday because both of us craved for it. Then we went drinking sweet water for supper because we craved for cheema woo. So papa and mama brought us eat thong sui, cheema cheema was lovely. It was smooth. I like how its shines like as though it was metallic.

Today skipped maths. Because it was supposed to be a study break. Anyway we went KLCC to watch Kompas Emas. Then we bought bags for Kina kina. Then both of us bought a dress each. It was the same dress only different colour. It has been years since we wear the same thing. Anyway the dress is nice, if not we wouldn’t have bought two.

Oh yea, i realised Monmon is my deamon. Actually they copied my idea. The deamon concept is mine. copycatters. I thought of it few years ago.