I sat for my physics test on waves today. I actually planned to copy my smart friends but i didn’t. I guess, maybe getting good scores but not your own hardwork has no meaning at all. Might as well don’t take the test at all. If my school mates read this, i guess they will be quite surprised that i planned to copy because when i was in secondary, i wasn’t in those group of people.

I guess A Levels has shaken me up a bit. I don’t know how my score will be like, I am a bit scared because i failed my last one, but that was because i didn’t study for it, but still hahaha failling is not a nice feeling. Imagine everyone did well and i failed! I mean my test only, not my exams.

I am trying to stay strong, it is not easy but actually it is not hard also, but i guess i am slightly lazy now. There are some distraction now. My goal is the only thing that is keeping me going. If not for my goal, i will be doing something so differently. But i am proud of what i am aiming for. I have chosen it, i will go for it.

Everyday travel to college, i see that the haze is coming back, i feel sad. I see the industrial area near our house, every morning there will be smoke circling them, KLCC is not that clear already. All these keep appearing in front of me, it is like i am being reminded of my goal. I can’t really get away from it.

I just want to go for my goal and make my parents feel proud of what i do. I want them to tell people " That girl who solved global warming is my daugther! " or " You know why Malaysia is so environmental friendly now? Because of my daughter! My daughter is Charmaine Ho!"