ew. president chua did something disgusting today.

Anyway i never knew i would enjoy doing koryo. so fun and pretty.

jeff didn’t come, so president took over the class, i thought it would be boring but it turned out fine. I learned how to push my opponent’s hip and kick. I push president’s hip and he said " it’s like some one kicking me but i can’t really feel anything. " Never mind, i go home practise, next week he will feel ’something’.

We also did Koryo. I didn’t know that some of the moves were to grab the men’s testicles. Cool right? but why must it always be a man? why can’t we attack the women’s weakess part too? But which part?

Anyway zhiwei didn’t join today. But if she joined, she would have fainted. No, i am not talking bad about you zhiwei, because today’s warm up was harsh, everyone except him la, was dizzy already, and he was still so active like he just woke up from his sleep. He so bad hor.

Anyway tomorrow will be our first aid course. I can’t wait. It will be fun. I just hope that my cough will be gone within 2 weeks.

After our term break, I have been so BUSY!!! I think some people might not take it, because my life is too crazy at this moment, but luckily it is not stressful at all.

LAN subjects, makes my life harder, all the projects and presentation, luckily i only have two more to go!!! Our presentation went well! I was one of them who presented!! Yay! hehehehe. Then Tae Kwon Do lesson is getting tougher but i still don’t find it tough la only more painful. Yea i know, I scream like a girl.

Yesterday we did sparring and since only dee and me were the only girls, both of us wore the vest and spar with each other! So fun la. Both of us were like really kicking one another like hell and she kept elbowing my feet until now got so many blue black. stupid dee. Nevermind i shall take revenge next week. Ohya, i think that we are supposed to go for a sparring competition by the end of october. So dangerous and freaky, but what ever la. Ya la i know that dee and me not as hebat as the guys because compared to them, we are  so gentle, but seriously, both of us took each other seriously. Without proper care, both of us could have killed each other. hahahaha. Then at night go bowling. So tired!

Then the next day which is today, got the first aid course. Today was the first session. We learned how to do CPR on dummies. Last year i did was just like the theory, didnt do on dummies but real humans, so didnt get to do mouth to mouth. Howrrever today, we did mouth to mouth so many times until all my saliva came out! just kidding.

And I still have tons of home work to finish, but i am having so much fun!!

Tomorrow i have to spend half a day out of the house again to attend a function.

I hope all these won’t really pull my results down.

Woke up at 7am today to prepare my self for Mount Kina Kina. Reached Batu Caves in less than 5 minutes. It was so merry.

Started climbing Batu Caves. In 30 minutes time, we went up and down three times.

Legs condition: weak and wobbly. But i am glad besides that, it is ok. No muscle pain.

Monday after class do again.

Objective: Prepare for Mt Kina Kina on March. Increase stamina.

Short term goal: In 2 weeks time, can climb Batu Caves 6 times.

Comments: So hard to sweat. My dada’s shirt wet, but i could only release vapour. Had XO Lor Meen after the training. I feel so healthy.

From now on, I don’t care. It is so good! Hahahaha! Going to prepare myself for some up coming challenges which does not include my studies and it just make me so alive!

Today during training, the korean guy brought in another korean guy and a malaysian who looked like a korean and they are big sized people. Dee and me were the only girl. Feel so… outcasted but luckily Jeff and Chua were there if not dee and me could have been found crying at the corner of the room.

Anyway training today was a little bit extreme but not extreme as the first. Did some sparring techniques and Jeff wanted to test our basics and he said our basics are there and from next week, we are going to work on more tougher things. So excited!

But actually i didn’t sweat also. It should have been tougher. sigh.

Chua and us are a bit fed up already of the waiting, so we plan to take things into our hand since not many turn up also, so might as well do it OUR way.

YAY!

While we were coming home from our Malaysian studies today, we saw a motorcyclist bang into a stationary Kancil and the motorcyclist flew and did a tumble turn 360 in the air. He knocked his head on the ground but luckily he had his helmet on. My dad was lucky enough not to drive so fast if not, he would have been a dead man but i don’t want to imagine any more further. But not to worry, he is still was one piece only tramatized.

This incident reminded of my birthday where i saw a rat crossing a road and in a blink of an eye it was squashed by a lorry. It happened early in the morning when my day was just starting. I was a bit shaken from what i saw and it was sad. It is different to see how it get squashed and remember the second before it was alive and a second after that it is dead.

On that day, i also had kind of really bad fight with one of my friend. Call that an 18th birthday. I was really looking forward to it, to celebrate with my close friends but it turned out horrible. Worst day of this year. I don’t think i will ever look forward to it anymore. Actually, my birthday has always been ‘not good’ ever since secondary school and although people wish me but.. it is one of the saddest day in the year but this year was the worst of all birthdays.

But something was different this year which was quite touching. My college mates bought dee and me two teddy bears and the whole class sang Happy Birthday. It was sweet and it is still sweet. Then after my big fight with my friend, i was really down and hurt, my mom and dad suddenly called us down to sing us Happy Birthday and told us that our cousin bought us a cake. I was nearly in tears at that time. They made me feel a bit better. I cannot live without them =’ )

I didn’t expect to have fun before LAN classes today. Hueywen having fever today so she wasn’t in college with our gang. So before LAN, keehao and us were in the reading room doing stats. So boring but at least I am halfway through my homework. Then we walk to the main block from our A Levels department. So freaking scary but so freaking funny and fun. Just the three of us in the middle of the road trying to guess how to go to our destination. We were just lacking of a map and a compass, if not we could have been city trekking. Hahaha!

Then when me manage to reach the immigration department, we got free drinks and food from KFC. So shiok! hahaha. Oh yea, and free Post It too.

But anyway before the year ends or at least before my A Levels course ends, I have to complete a few things which i have in mind.

Driving license, IELTS, upgrade belt, join at least a sparring competition. All seems so hard and unreachable, don’t ask me why. Non stop test, after mini test, mock exam, after mock exam, real exam then the cycle starts again.

Eww, yuck yuck.

But to commit suicide is really sinful. Got to hell one. Coward. No man.

Yesterday after feeding my cat, i forgot to wash my hand before rubbing my eye. Usually i would only wash after i play with them not after i feed them but anyways, after i rubbed my eye, in one minute, my eye was so swollen. I was so scared my eye burst but luckily it didn’t and i managed to go for classes today some more. But it felt weird. No one realized though.

Sigh, after this i have to continue with my stats. Argh!

Question of the day: why hor, i meet many ‘tough man’ (boys) become so weak when it comes to relationships? why tough man can also be like that one?

Many people do not know what i want to be besides being a green freak. I am a green freak but i like to be other freaks too. Being a freak is nice because at least i am focus at some thing but not just doing something lightly. Freak equal to focus. Study freak is a study focuser. hakhak.

I wanna be a psychologist because i wanna know humans better and manipulate them and even myself so that i can find ways to conquer our weakness by lying to one self and rule the world.

Lawyer because i like to talk and talk and talk, at home i talk a lot especially to my dad and Dee until they get fed up but when you put me in a group of strangers or aliens friends i will just shut my mouth because i don’t like new people and i am a very the very sensitive girl who is very conscious about herself and when she talks with strangers, she feel that they are bad people and she just don’t trust them. Okay, anyway i like to do research on what i have and present it to my dad and Dee because at home they are the only people who listens to me and i like to convince them that what i found out it true although some times i was just lying, but just testing if my face expression worked out or not but seriously, i am not that bad as you think i am. But maybe i am.

Background dancer because i like to dance at the back of big people and join in the fun but don’t want people to look at me but just look at the singer and let me do my thing and enjoy my time dancing on the stage happily with my other friends. I always dream myself doing that. Hakhak.

Philosopher because i like to think about things which people don’t usually thing and think about complicating stuff which has no meaning so i have to try to find out what does it mean then only i can sleep if not i can think the whole night. One way to find enlightenment too. But i actually don’t want to find enlightenment and be a Buddha, maybe for now but not sure later, because life on earth is so interesting and i like how Goddess of Mercy didn’t want to be a Buddha because she wants to help people and earth. Maybe you have misunderstood me but what i want is to stay here and learn about people and help people and have a meaningful life.

Observer ( if there is such an occupation ) because i like to see what are people doing and what are they thinking and learn about their flaws and goodness and teach me to be a better person because every human being is different as each of us have a different concept of life and we live life by that concept of ours.

I used to think of being a hair stylist is cool because i can style people’s hair but i find that it has no meaning to me any more because i will just style people’s hair and not learn anything.

I even thought of taking up religious studies after going for my moral classes in college because it is philosophy to me but of course if i were to take up any of it, it won’t be soon. But it is some thing i wish to do later in life if i have the chance and money.

I like it when there is a challenge although it made me feel a down for a while, but i believe it will be my stepping stone.

There was a period in my life when every morning i wake up, I told my self that i will do something today which will be a turning point in my life. It will be a significant event in my life.

Dee always tell me that i have a disadvantage of never to fail in anything i do before because if one day i failed, i might not handle it well because i have no experience in doing so. Well, i failed my physics test!! It’s my first and the feeling is not nice because my friends did very well!! So what have i learned from failing my physics test:

1. Char cannot do well if she doesn’t study.
2. Char can do well if she studies.
3. Char cannot multi-task
4. Char likes to fall and climb the hill again. She likes self torturing ( @.@ )
5. Char is weird

I know i am very dramatic. Fail test also must write in blog. Apalah. Like people never fail in their test before.

I used to receive an email about this group of frogs trying to climb a tower. But in the end only one managed to climb it and people found out that it was deaf.

That frog succeeded because it didn’t get influenced by negative comments by the audience because of it being deaf unlike the others.

I have to be a deaf frog now to focus on my dreams. Focus Char focus. As a sport women, an obstacle is a challenge. A challenge is always fun. I have been trained to take up challenges, I know i can do it.

( inhale )  cancel all negative thoughts and focus.. ( exhale )

Do you know that you learn more while watching TV then just sit in your room studying like a mad dog? I know i do =D

Kelvin thinks that i am addicted to TV when i think i am really addicted to TV. When i was in primary school, i was a addicted to TV but for a different reason. I was addicted to the Chinese drama although we didn’t subscribe to Astro yet. Usually after school, I’ll be watching TV until i sleep at night. So fun.

However now i watch TV for a different reason. I don’t know why, i but seem to very interested in learning alot of new things!! When you see my studying, actually i study just to get good results in my exam. But actually studying like that is meaningless. What is the meaning of it when for the whole term you keep studying and repeating the same thing just to remember what you learn and pass the exam with flying colours and get people to pat you and thinks that you are very clever when there are so many things ( more practical info than what you learn ) out there ( in the TV ) where you can make use in the future. When i am not studying, i will be watching TV. I don’t watch chartoons because it is childish =P I watch all the goodie goodie channels. Big fan of discovery channel, national geographic, what is channel 53? but that channel is also my addiction and also crime investigates 79 and movies HBO, cinemax and star movies!

I mean in what subject which i am taking now can tell me that people think that the pyramids were build by the aliens? Which lecturer can tell me how to survive if i got lost in the jungle or desserts or an island when i can watch MAN VS WILD on discovery channel? Who would ever know that salami can be used as rocket fuel just in case we are out of petroleum? I would never know all the famous serial killers in the world like TED BUNDY if i didn’t watch TV. Or that the spidew web is one of the toughest substance in the world. I don’t know why i remember these facts better that what i have studied for a few months.

Oh ya i learn some thing about sleep paralysis too!! For chinese if you get sleep paralysis, usually you will see a ghost or something like that la. Not really a nice experience. They call it ‘ pei gwai chack!’ haha. This also happen in in the US but instead of seeing ghost or what, they say they were being abducted by aliens. But researchers soon found out that it is all sleep paralysis and what you see is based on where you are from because different place have different culture and tradition. And you usually get sleep paralysis when you are really tired and it happens when you are having your cross over to the dream world half way. You wake up but your nerve system is shut down, so you can’t move for that period but you will be ok when you wake up.

Maybe that is why I don’t put my studies as my top priority any more. Ok la it went to second or third place. Hmmm..  So people, watch more TV. Even doctor House says so.. It will do you good.