Have you ever dreamt of getting married before when you were 18 years old or below? I just dreamt last night that i got married. It was weird.

It felt like i suddenly had a burden when i am not ready to give my commitment to something so big. It was not nice also. Getting married now is no fun. hehe.

After I dreamt about it I couldn’t sleep. It gave too much impact to me. It was freaky. Am I weird?

By the way, my husband didn’t treat me well in the dream. I didn’t know i had such bad taste. haha!

i was bored and i am still bored.

feel so different lately and it doesn’t mean it is a good feeling. i feel that the world is leaving me behind and i have to work hard to catch up but i am just so lazy and tired.

I went gymming today to work on my stamina for my mt kinabalu climb. It was fun but seriously, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO SWEAT? i was panting and there were so little sweat. It was all just vapour. Then i did some stretching and i thought i broke a tendon or something like that. It was frightening.  but i think my muscle just shift its place because now no  more pain. Yea, no sweat hor.

Then we watched a movie after that. My body temperature went up. Going to get sick soon. sigh. stupid exam is torturing me. why am i char.. sigh.

la la mui..

people get disgusted when ever they see them, but some are attracted to them. Interesting.

I don’t really like them because they are hunting for attention when there are other better things to do like feed stray cats at the back streets. but one thing which i like about them is that, they get to express them self and they are not afraid. unlike me.

Expressing one self is always good, it only depends on how do you express it. I express it by breathing hard because i don’t wish to tell anyone about it =D

But do you realised that what lala mui wear are actually pretty clothes? only that they mix it so badly it looks horrible and horrifying. If only i could be like them.

It’s ok if people talk about them. usually it is because they are jealous that they don’t have the courage to express them self as well as the lala muis. Who cares of what people say. We live our life our way because it’s ours, not theirs.

Sob. Sob.

I got number 5 in the open category and qualified for the Masters. In the knock out round, my oponent was See Eu Joe, a new bowler in our group. Very big size, in his 20’s. Compared to me, I was an ant. I bowled well and beat him. i think he didn’t expect that to happen because he was the champion in the Graded category, and i was a no body.

Then my next opponent was Kenson Handsome ( uncle sany calls him that). hehe i beat him by 2 pins. yay!! Manage to qualify for the finals. I thought it will be an easy win because my opponent will be Mrs. See ( my first opponent’s mother ) and since Kenson was out, all big threats are out. However i lost in the end. Luck wasn’t on my side and fatigue took me over. Of all days, I gave up yesterday instead. I don’t know how to feel although it was just a small competition and every month there is a monthly medal that is why it is called monthly medal. People thought I was under alot of pressure. I was just tired…

Sob. Sob.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee…..

Yesterday I watched a show and they played Love Me Tender. Aww.. aww.. the today when i wake up, it was the first thing that popped in my head!! Then i sang to dee dee..

Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.

Love me tender,
Love me true,
All my dreams fulfilled.
For my darlin’ I love you,
And I always will.

Love me tender,
Love me long,
Take me to your heart.
For it’s there that I belong,
And we’ll never part.

Love me tender,
Love me dear,
Tell me you are mine.
I’ll be yours through all the years,
Till the end of time.

(when at last my dreams come true
Darling this I know

hahaha!! I very mou liu.

I love people but I hate them too!!!

What a bad day.

The more I see, It kills me more.

Argh!

…..

I know I am not that good in my studies, but there is no need to demoralise me.

I have got to get through this..

I believe I can! If I think I can , I can!

Some one actually said I live in a fairy tale land..

Yesterday, by miracle, two kitten walk into our porch and started meowing. I gave one of them a piece of kitty snack and it went crazy. It started to attack my toes like want to eat it. It was really really hungry. then my two grown up kitten started to growl at them because they are at their territory.

I was worried our kitten might kill them, but they didn’t. The two young kittens manage to hide at the corners of our porch where the big kittens can’t reach them.

However i have no reason to rare more kittens, my mom complain that i waste money when i buy kitty snacks. So just morning, i took the two kittens and put them in out neighbour house. Although my neighbours killed our kittens before, i know that they like kittens very much, so  I believe they can care for them. These kittens look lost by the way, they must be orphans and they are quite aggressive.

Anyway, it nice to hear they neighbors kids were playing with them and from time to time i peep in their porch to look for them. they found a nice place to sleep on, hehe on the swing.

I have just cleared my inbox. So many memories. So many crap too. Just wondering if will I ever change.

I am glad that my mockie is gone. Especially Biology Unit One and Two. First time I study until nearly got sick.  Had to stop myself from every thing and sleep. yea i know it’s just a mock, it wont do anything to your future also, but but.. still, my real exam is just a month away, if I don’t do well in this one means I am so not ready for my real exam.

hehehe then sis and i went to mid valley watch spideyman with leo. All he ever did was sms-ing his..erm.. cannot say..

Then he send us home. Then eat. Then sleep. so shiok.

I went to the temple yesterday. This year i felt different than other years because maybe I believe in god more than I used to. We went there in the evening.

People wore white. I wore brown. Felt a bit out. But anyways, my family got blessed quite a few times. There were quite some interesting things to see. So many young people quite surprised me.I thought of going for a blood donation there, but my dad said I’m too thin. They won’t accept my blood. I think he was..dunno. I thought of joining the procession but my parents thought i was joking. They don’t take dee and me seriously. Never. But when they realized i was serious, i had no mood already. i want to do good deeds but none was done.

Ate crabs at night. Felt weird because not supposed to eat meat but we ate crabs. I had a sudden crave for crabs yesterday. I couldn’t do much.