sigh, this week all three experiments went bad. For physics, I didn’t know what i was doing.. i was sleepy then always kena checked by my teacher. tension ma, he walk to and fro in front of me. How to concentrate and do.

Then biology, i prepared two slides to see mitosis. The first one went bad because it was all shriveled up. Then i thought the second one was good, so i see see lor. Then teacher came and say she wanna see, then she say that my slide cannot be used. No mood wanna prepare another one, so i just wonder around the lab peeking people results and see how are they doing. I purposely lost Dee’s telophase cell because i was too jealous i couldn’t have a good slide

Today chemistry practical. Teacher said some small explosion might happen if the test tube have some mini cracks when we heat it. Got warning also i didn’t care, I didn’t check my test tubes before heating it, it burst, the mini glasses hurt my hand, but nothing much, just ant bite pain only. It’s was nice, people stared at me and i smiled. Then i was heating another test tube, and when i wanna wash it, i forgot that hot glass cannot mix with cold water. The test tube burst in the sink. Stupid me. Then after that, most of the mini experiment i did it with my hand shaking. And stupid fumes, felt like i was drowning in the swimming pool. I skipped one experiment because i was too scared and i melted my pencil case. What a day. I enjoyed most was drying the wet test tubes by heating it gently on the bunsen burner.

This Saturday  I am supposed to be in school to collect my prize for my results in SPM but too bad, I can’t go. Having a small tiny weenie bowling competition by my college. Same time.If you ask me is it worth it to cut the ceremony for this competition, its not worth it at all. But i paid everything already and SPM is a past now, so i have to move on with what i am supposed to do now.

Hmmm miss the chance to see my ex classmates.

Have you have crushes on people before? Do you realized that when you close your eyes, you can’t really see their face? It’s blur compared to images of your friends whom you don’t have a crush on. It’s not just crushes I mean. Love ones are counted too like your family members.

Do you know why you can’t see their faces? It is because deep in your heart you can’t get enough of them, so its never enough to get hold of their faces in your mind. And maybe that is why you can’t stop looking at your crush.

For example, I can never picture Dee’s face in my head. Its just blank because everyday i see her, so there is no need for my brain to recognize her features and so on. But people whom you seldom meet are different. You can see their faces in your mind because your mind has captured their special features to help you identify them when you see them again! so cool!!

So when you are in doubt, listen to your heart. Close your eyes and you will see.

I am getting married soon. I also tell people I am getting my driving license soon although I don’t know when will that be haha.

Anyway, have you thought of having an arranged marriage for your self before? I know it’s old fashion but it could be considered for some practical reasons which are:

Tadah!!! 10 Reasons Why Should You Have An Arranged Marriage!

1. You don’t give a damn about your love life, you just want to earn money to spend, spend and spend.

2.You are a workaholic. you love your job more than you love your spouse. But you don’t want to die alone.

3. You don’t believe in true love . There fore don’t want to waste time to find the right one.

4. You want your family members to stop asking you when will you find a girlfriend/boyfriend and then get married and have babies.

5. You wanna be different from other people

6. Show off to people telling them that you are a good child, still listening to your parents including choosing who to marry

7.The person that you are going to get married is too rich to be ignored

8.You have nothing better else to do with your life.

9. You want to see if your parents knows your taste

10. You want to write a best selling book about living with some one whom you don’t love, there fore experiencing it first hand.

What is love between a couple? Is a just a feeling of caring and sharing.. or is it more than that? Is it an overwhelming feeling or is it just warmth or is it something else?

Is there really true love? In dramas and stories i would say yes but reality.. i don’t know. So many couples around me, my friends, my parents, my uncles and aunties, committed to one and other. Why? Is it because of love or is it because of something else like money, companion, olden times arranged marriage?

Most people i meet who are people around my age, dream to find true love but not for me because some where in me don’t believe it exist, or does it? Why people hunger for this love? Is it because it is nice or they have no goals in their life so this will be one of their goals?

Is it worth while going through so much pain and misery just to find that one true love? Will you even die regretting for not finding one.. even when you have a loving family. Some times i feel this true love thing is just an illusion. It stops us from appreciating people who really love us like our family and friends when we get too carried away just to find for The One. Many people die just to celebrate Valentine’s Day with their true love.

It’s true that love is a powerful thing. It is the foundation of mankind, but it is also a destructor factor .

I want to see my secondary school classmates for the last time while collecting my SPM results next week but then I can’t miss my classes on that day. I have physics practical, chemistry and math. All no play play subjects how to skip class wor. But I really wanna see my friends. Aiyo. How leh how leh.. its sometimes bad how i am a responsible student because sometimes what i do don’t make me happy at all and its stupid following stupid rules but that is just me being stupid following stupid orders.

It’s stupid skipping classes just because of collecting results of something that has passed, but seeing my friends. They are more important than my classes no matter how important my classes are yea?

hmmm…. HMMMMMMMM…. hmmmm…