Ahh.. so peaceful. Sitting here writing my blog. Its early but i cant sleep anymore. I keep thinking about my friend.

Although it is over already, i just feel sad. How can it become so ugly. It’s weird how we were grateful to meet each other. We really enjoyed each other’s company. We had so much fun together!! But we changed as our friendship went on. We changed personality towards each other. Not change for the better but for the worse. Maybe we ask too much from each other. It affected us for a month or two. It ended when we couldn’t stand it anymore and wanted our normal life back. It’s ironic.

Haha! Many of my friends don’t know that i have just cut my hair! It’s really short now. Some of them will have no feelings because it’s none of their business, some will feel sad, and some just will ejek me I don’t look nice : D

It doesn’t really matter because I LIKE IT!! I feel so free now!! In college some say it look nice and some say i look even more childish! (???????)

Anyway, now when i walk with Dee, people don’t look at us anymore most probably its because of my hair. hehe that is what i like. But some times i just get irritated when people ask " why you cut but dee don’t cut? " why must she cut when I cut? why must you cut when i cut? What has she got to do with me? Then people will say " Twins ma! " But before I cut they complain why both of us have the same hair style =.=

Haha what a great way to start a new year. Yea, cut it all…

Hair cutting rocks!!

Not too long ago, I went to the temple with my mom and Dee to pray. We usually go there before Chinese New Year, to pray for good health and good luck for the new year that is coming.

Anyway, this year Dee and me had to pray to the Tai Sui Ye and do the Chuen Kok Wan because it won’t be a good year for us, so by doing this, people believe that we won’t have a very bad year la.

I just find that why must it be so complicating actually. Why can’t we just go to the temple and kneel in front of your god that you wish to pray, and just pray? Why the need to burn this and burn that, and do this and do that? I won’t say i don’t believe it but it looks fake. And all these needs money you know. You want this you pay. You want that you pay. All in cost more than Rm 50. Who would ever thought praying needs money. If you don’t do the ceremony right, you most probably will get scolded by the ‘temple’s assistant’ .

I always thought connecting to God is very simple. Actually it’s simple. Just that people add their tradition into it making it so complicating. Maybe that is why the new generation don’t seem to continue what their ancestors do, because it is complicating. So complicating until when you pray in the temple, there will be some one instructing you what to do and what to do next. I mean, got such thing meh?

But one thing which i saw on that day made me feel content. These complicating ceremony unites family members. I saw a family there that day, parents with 2 of their children around 20 years old, praying together. I don’t see that anymore as in elderly parent go to the temple with their grown up children who usually leave their family after they have reached 20 years old.