I realized when i am some ones faktor kegembiraan or even a faktor kesedihan, i don’t feel so empty. For me my faktor kegembiraan is my Dad because i get butterflies in my stomach when i see him  because i just can’t wait to irritate him. This applies to my mom too because she always look sad sad, and irritating her makes her forget bout life at work for a while. heehaw. Dee is my faktor kegembiraan. When i see her, i will just go high. Aaron is my faktor kesedihan because he likes to cut my face of from the photo when i took a pic with my kitties ( see here http://aaronho.bloglogo.com/2006/10/07/assignments-are-kinda-over/ ). When I am not some ones faktor kegembiraan or a faktor kesedihan to some body, I feel empty because it means i do not have a place in their heart. Sad leh. So if some one say " You make me sad!!! You make me wanna die!! " to you, smile because you have a place in some ones heart.

Yesterday, Dee asked me " Got many boys like me, but why none of them ask me to be their girlfriend when most of my boy friends 9 out of 10 of them are brave at asking girls out? " No, she is not asking for a boyfriend but the thought just suddenly came to her. So we started to look around us and see. We have a boy friend, he is perfect, good-looking, don’t curse or say bad words, nice brother, nice friend, just perfect. BUT he is single. Why leh heh? Maybe he don’t want lar, but still i can’t imagine girls going up to him and say " Can you be my boyfriend pleeease? " So maybe it is like that, no matter how perfect you are, being a too perfect don’t attract people. Instead we need to have ATTITUDE. you know the bad bad one when where you start to say " what the f*** " or " You &%$#?&^% coward!! " etc. That day some one called me odd because i don’t use bad words. Hahaha people are funny.