Trials started already. I am not complaining any thing about it but it’s about me. My attitude. I feel really no mood to take my school books and read or do some work. Maybe i am just bored. And i have this feeling where i don’t care about my trials although it is important. I have turn into a selfish girl. Not that i am doing great in school too. Just doing ok. But ok is not enough. And ever since bla bla.. i have changed. I keep thinking about bla bla and bla bla stuff. It’s ridiculous. I don’t like my self now, but i just can’t help it. When can i return to myself?  Yuck yuck yuck!!