Although SPM is just around the corner and teacher said stop all your non study activities and just study like a nerd, hehe i pin pin don’t want to follow!!! I go online everyday, play everyday, holiday on Friday, eat all i want( teacher said kurangkan makan dunno why) and wee wee wee all day long!! i feel very satisfied!! i just love my self!! Wee Wee Wee!!!
I am feeling happy!!! I am not sure why but maybe because SPM is near!! Suddenly I can just see all the positive things about everything around me. I realized my way of thinking have changed too. Today i also ponteng, just to celebrate this day hahaha. But the thing is WHERE IS MY SOLO CAMPING LETTER?!?! i miss it very much that i need to see it. And also haven’t received any calls from OBS. But i don’t care because i don’t feel like going anymore. It freaks me out. What my brother say of me is true, i am a coward. If i get selected, I’ll give it to Dee, not like anyone will know. I also give her my IC too. Not like any one will notice. Haha! Wee! Wee! Wee!
You know people who work at those advertising companies or art studio’s, they like to dress differently just to stand out from the crowd and so call it’s their style right? ha ha the funny thing is we as ordinary people don’t see them as unique individuals but we say " Oh, there go one of those people!! How fascinating!!" So what is the difference trying to be different when in the end people group you as the group of people who tries to be different.
Today we sat for our last trial paper, so i thought of resting today. Constantly studying for the whole month, very tiring leh. No mood want to study already. But guess what, i am feeling guilty for not studying now. And Dee is listening to those sad ColdPlay songs, even more depressing.
I need to be alone.
I feel very lucky that i am good in what i do and also almost everything i do. But i’m sad that my brother is not as lucky as me. Yesterday during training he was struggling although it has been a month already since we have started training I am improving and i am happy with that but he is suffering, but he still have to go on. Why are we all not the same although we have the same biological parents? It’s sad that he can’t run with us but instead we run with him, that is what sibling are for..
Trials started already. I am not complaining any thing about it but it’s about me. My attitude. I feel really no mood to take my school books and read or do some work. Maybe i am just bored. And i have this feeling where i don’t care about my trials although it is important. I have turn into a selfish girl. Not that i am doing great in school too. Just doing ok. But ok is not enough. And ever since bla bla.. i have changed. I keep thinking about bla bla and bla bla stuff. It’s ridiculous. I don’t like my self now, but i just can’t help it. When can i return to myself? Yuck yuck yuck!!
It’s true how people say that we are lucky to be twins. Yes, we are very lucky indeed. I do not deny that. But Some times i Just can’t stand it being stared almost all the time although we have been stared for ages since we were born. Many would tell us to ignore but the truth is, it’s not easy. I like to be with Dee especially when we are out. Not being with her is boring because i won’t have the chance of telling people about my views without feeling weird. But whenever both of us are together people would stare at us, sometimes it seems rude. Many of you wouldn’t know but we actually try very hard to look different some times. Especially in tuition where there are many people around. But still.. my hard work of dressing differently with my messy hair style and specs and a bulky bag still make me look alike with Dee whose hair will be tied up nicely, contacts lenses on, sweet sling bag and sometimes a dress. Sometimes i would even wish to cut off my fringe but not now, after SPM then no more fringe only. It’s really nice when I can stick to Dee for the whole day without being stared at but that only happens in school and R3 club, not any where else. I just want to be normal. Not me, but WE!! But there was one stage i thought that Dee and me are starting to look different already and i really believed that because people stop staring at us for a while, but.. it was just fake. Bluff one. Instead people say we look so alike that it is hard to differentiatewho is who. It’s sad to hear that because it will take a long time for people to see the differences in us. You might say what is wrong being alike?!?! I dunno!! But it’s not nice being alike all the time!! ARGH!!! people call us twinnies, i don’t mind but i don’t like it!! Some people treat us as one too. And some people think that if Dee hate them, i will hate them too which is SO Not TRUE!! what is wrong with you people?!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!! WE ARE SEPARATE INDIVIDUALS AND WE HAVE SEPARATE IDEAS AND OPINION!! USE YOUR BRAINS!!! sorry, too emotional.
* Dee said we should name the kitten Baa and Bee so that we can call them babi at the same time.
* I think they are twins because they have the same brown patches and the same ugly black colour just like dee and me. They have very soft fur too just like my bumbum.
* I am having a bad head ache.
* I am writing in this form because i am used to writing notes already.
* Mr. Fong is a friendly guy. Guess what? He asked who is older. But of course we didn’t tell him our ’sad’ story.
* OK, i admit that my chinese is horibble. I was telling my mother that it was 3.15 pm but she heard me telling her that it’s thirty cents.
* Kitty gave birth last night while we were sleeping. Not lucky enough to see her gave birth
*Me, first one to find them hiding some where at the corner of the house
*First one to tell some one that we have kittens again. It’s nice telling everyone in the house because i know and they don’t know.
*From that big tummy of Kitty, only two kitties were found sucking her milk. They are so small that i can put both of them in my mouth. That’s why a mouthful of joy instead of a bundle of joy.
* One of them is kinda pretty and another one sorta ugly, but the truth is they are pretty ugly ( lame joke ). But i will love them all the same.
* Planning to name them Baa and Boo
