I feel very feelingful this days. These feelings are good and bad but i am not really happy about most of them. I eat very little these days, always hungry 24-7, the difference is can tahan or cannot tahan. If you ask me why am i doing this, i don’t know but i wanna feel pain. I am also disgusted about something about me which i can’t tell. I can’t accept the fact that i am experiencing feelings that i strongly don’t agree myself. But what can i do. I just hope it will go away soon. I shall just put it aside.