I am bored. What is there to do on line besides wasting your time here or finding useful info. Internet drives me nuts because people especially teenagers are getting crazy. Internet suck out the life of them. They say the meet friends on line. It make them happy. But do these friendship last? A few only do. Teenagers who go on line often look like zombies. When its time to go out, they will look sad. When its time to go home they will be happy. It’s even worst if they have a laptop. Bringing Their ‘joy’ where ever they go. Some times i think technology is ruining us. Technology has made us forget who we are, forget what are our responsibilities and also made us take many things for granted. Cooking is easier. House cleaning is easier. Yes everything is easier. It’s good, but some times these little things help us to do better in our life. Doing house chores is good for health. We also won’t be feeling lazy. I bet life would be even more interesting. I like people. Are you happy you being you? If you do, well congratulation. Everyone should feel happy of who and what they are not matter how ugly or how useless they are because life need to go on no matter what.

Wow, today was a so so so fun day. Today AR, got a birthday party for all our classmates who were born in the month of march and April so got a party lar. Then AR like usually sis and i was quiet but i think i spoke less than 10 words today!! hahaha. Anyway i didn’t meant to tell you those stuff. i managed to do the cola fountain but didn’t manage to hit Hannan but then he got hit by an egg thrown by don’t know who. hahaha but i pity him. he was a stinko with Syakir after that. Then they took a bath. Anyway Hannan lied to people saying that i am a bad kid. I don’t look like what i look. Azrie too. Acap too. Izzati too. Yesterday Acap lasticked me in the bio lab. i looked at him and he didn’t say sorry or anything, so i lasticked his gang la. Then AR Hannan came to my table and throw my paper lasticked in front of me. So i went to his table and throw the paper at his head but at the side la. I didn’t hurt him. HAHAHAHAHA. then they came to my table and took my pencil box. So childish hor. Then AR we go to his table and i took Azrie’s plastic folder and Dee took hannan’s bio book. Then when class finish i saw Acap and Azrie running to our class so Dee started to run too. so when they got into the class they took our bags and of course we took theirs. There was nearly a gang fight!! hahahaha. so funny. Today i don’t know what is up with Hannan always lie to people. It is not good to lie you know. Go to hell one. He and Azrie and Acap told their mother that we are bad. You see they lying. We where got bad one, only cute cute ma. Today i saw a gruesome scene. Azleen stuffed hannan’s mouth with cake. Oh my!! I pity him. The cake was all over his face and Azleen still pushing more cake on his face. I think some went into his nostrils. hahahaha. I actually this year we have been always together with our classmates and i have never felt this kind of fun before and it is really fun. Oh yea, guess how did we eat the birthday cake? we didn’t cut it. we ate out cake like uneducated people. we took our spoon and scoop the bottom of the cake with our saliva on each our spoon after licking our spoon. Then Hannan told us to dig the bottom of the cake so it will shape like a mushroom and in the end it will runtuh. He also did it. he told us to do it. HAHAHA. THEN IT DID RUNTUH!! then people ask why did it runtuh and he lied once more. He said we sengaja one.its our idea and more lar. you see lying is not good. Jangan tuduh perkara yang benar ya?

The recently memorable phrase my mom said to me was ‘ No lah, you are not thin. OK la you.’ you know i felt very.. very happy.. in fact it was indescribable hahaha. Usually my ma will look at us with a pitiful face and give a sound like stk..stk..stk.. then she will say " aiyo girls, you all so thin la, everyday i only see you eat plain rice only. not nice la so thin. eat more la..’ but i didn’t change my eating habit( i mean i was not eating plain rice, i hate eating plain rice, only that she always miss the part we eat our rice with something) and one day i ask her again but was not hoping much to hear good news from her and want to irritate her if i were still thin. Then she said it!! She said i was OK. i could not believe it. Then i told her that i will eat more fat to be fatter so she said no need. but she said Dee was still thin. But let me tell you something.. Dee is heavier than me. i weigh 45 kg and she weighs 47 kg!! but i am plumer than her, which keeps my mom nagging saying that she is thin but actually not much difference. i pity her. usually daughters will hate their mother telling them to loose weight because they look fat, but do mothers know that by saying this they are putting unnecessary pressure, worries and sadness on their child? although we are in the different case where we are thin and mother telling us to put on weight, it is still the same. UNNECESSARY PRESSURE, WORRIES AND SADNESS. i mean i didn’t lessen my food, i don’t psycho myself not to eat or go on diet, i am not in a state of malnutrition or even get easily sick. I AM HEALTHY only that i am thin. although its a little bit different already but still why ruin the confidence of your child when there is nothing wrong actually? i am not blaming my mom, but why moms act like that and i just don’t agree la. I know some of you would actually say that we are VERY thin but does it matter?

Today was a fun day. We went to a beautiful mosque but too bad i don’t know what mosque was that. Then we went to the national science centre. Took alot of photos there. Did alot of stupid pose and i had a really great time although it was quite boring. The best part was visiting the park and the playground. I regreted didn’t take any photos there. The playground is so nice and cool and it is suitable for children around my age. The slides are really nice because it is steep so can move fast, very fast actually until no time to brake and will fall out from the slide hahahha. Then there is a play ground on the lake so we’ll get wet if not careful. I was a naughty girl today, so i got hurt while playing on the playground on the lake and my trousers got wet and left shoe got soggy. Luckily no blood but cukup pain to menderita for the trip home. But it is ok already. This photo was taken in the park beside the playground. I didn’t know i look as cute as the rabbit. In fact i want to ask, who is cuter? hahaha.

I really want to be picked as a CA for YAC 21 this year. i am hungry for new experiences. Good ones bad ones does not matter as long as i will learn something like i always do everytime i step out of OBS, ‘ The School of Knowledge’. It also changed my veiw towards a lot of things especially people. This is actually bad news to some but good news to me. Meeting new friends are always fun not because i get to add more friends on my list but it is because people are complicated there fore lessons are ready to be learned. I pity my sis because instead of gaining new friends she loose them instead but for a good reason. It is hard to find true friendship, really hard and i am even lucky to have a best friend whom i trust. No it is not dee. Dee is my sis. I wish with all my heart and soul, my sis and i will be picked as CA for this year. Please..please..please..

I have never i thought i will be feeling this some day, but i am feeling it now. I don’t think i need a boyfriend at all for this stage of my life. Last time when i was little, i used to think that having a boyfriend is very cool and i want to have one too when i am older like in secondary school. But then after getting to know many guys, i realized i prefer being alone and do other fun stuff than trying spend all my time just to be with a guy than with my family and friends and toys. Besides that i like being with my family members more than anyone else excluding people from raintree hahaha. Anyways most of the teenagers i see who are having a relationship at this age, most of them feel sad than happy like some people i know. So why put myself into a world ‘ full of sadness ‘. I know some of you will disagree with me and i admit i can’t tolerate boys. Most of them at this age are so sick to tell you the truth and girls at this age are very sensitive and emotional. So this two can’t get together at this period of time. Moreover some guys want to find a girlfriend just to treat them as a sex object if the girl is a girl whom does not know how to say no and resist. So why waste time finding a boyfriend, spend our time thinking of what to eat is better.

Hannan is a boy. He is my class monitor. Can say that he is the life of our class especially our team. This was proven yesterday. If he dies ( this is just a hiperbola ) everyone dies with him too. He is smart. Am i smart too? hahaha. If you read his name from the back it will sound something like nanah as in bernanah but this has got nothing to do with him. I think he will get angry after reading this post but WHATEVERLAH!! Yesterday something happened, but i can’t say because we have sworn over it, not about the incident but about our play. Hannan was the big thing in the happened thing and he was very sad ( i don’t know, i guess so) and then everyone followed his mood. Then some changes need to be made because of this accident but i have no problem at all. actually i think none of us have any problem with it at all.So hannan no need to feel so bad about it, in fact no need to feel bad at all.but he is feeling bad now. Wanna know why? Hannan is a special boy. Actually i never thought of writing this in my blog but because he requested it so i write lor. what to do eh? but i guess he was suspecting something else HAHAHA. he thinks that i am that bad..( crying ).. anyway knowing him since form four is a really great pleasure and i think after form five i won’t be able to meet any of my beloved malay friends and even Narbatha because we will be going on our own ways. I will miss them especially friends from my primary school who are still with me, my form 3I friends ( very special friends, all of the students from 3I were people i have never expected to meet- so friendly and nice!!), form 4B ( mixture of ex3I students and the arabian class students whom are very interesting as it was my first time being able to be in the same class with them) and lastly my current class 5A ( who are all so polite and very funny ). A REALLY GREAT PLEASURE TO MEET SUCH NICE PEOPLE AND I WILL MISS YOU ALL!!

I have a wish that has been in my mind for as long as i can remember. It is about something i want to learn, actually continue learning about it. But i don’t know why exactly do i still want to learn although i have stop for like 4 to 5 years already. Maybe show off or some sort but i don’t remember showing off also, in fact i don’t like telling people about it. When i see anything that has got something to do with it i will feel sad because not having a chance to continue learning it. It is not that some one is stopping me but it is just time and my ownself. I really really want to continue learning it so much, its like i am in love with it but i don’t know what will i do actually when i have the chance to learn it again. I will be like " you really want to continue or just waste your time there? " or " are you really sure about this? ".more over whenever i learn about it, i will feel this clod feeling like o don’t belong there. everyone around me is so different, they are better than me, i am just lucky and so on.writing this post made me feel even worst but this blog is about the happenings and thoughts through the body of charchar, so i will post this. sad.sad.