“What is for lunch girls?”

“What is for dinner girls?”

“What do you want to eat?”

“We have fish, chicken, pork, prawns… so what do you want?”

“How you want it? Fry? Steam?”

Ever since my holidays started, our maid tend to ask us these question i so freaking wanna avoid it but she is a person who just will run after you if you avoid her.

And i don’t like how she ask us, because it is like a person who can see, asking a blind person to describe the look of an elephant.

And she will keep pushing us by asking, “so what you want, what you want???”

There is no use asking what is there in teh fridge because every day there will be the same thing in the fridge. After asking what she has in the fridge, she will ask what you want again, so i just simply blurt out “fish” or “chicken” or “prawns” then she will ask how i want it. Well, i very cincai one, anything will do, and besides that i dunno how to cook, how am i going to answer her how to cook it? most of the time i say fry or steam although i am so bored of fried stuff and steam stuff.. but she just dunno how to think and find other ways to cook it..

I will always go err.. err..

Then some times she ask “you want fish?” and in my head i will go “if i dun say yes, u will ask me again if i want chicken or prawns or pork or whatever” and usually i will say yea. they she will say how you want to cook it? then i simply say fry?

then at night my mom will complain why she always steam or fry fish and ask if we ever get bored?

of course we get bored. But then that is the only way we know how to answer her when the maid ask us how to cook it?

Then when my mom ask her why didn’t she fry the pork belly or something else, then the maid will say i wanted fish.

when the truth was i didn’t ask for a fish, i just said ‘yea’.and she likes to ask me instead of dee, it is so damn freaking irritating.

And by right, when my mom is home, she is supposed to ask my mom what to cook because my mom usually tells her what to cook. But nowadays the maid always ask me!!! not dee, not my mom but me!!

she would ask me in front of my mom, “charmie, what you want for dinner?” then in my head i will go, “why you ask me?mom is there.. ask her.. what is your problem la.. it’s not like i’m the only person who is gonna eat.. =.= ”

then i would just answer her a plain simple, “dunno, ask mom”

You can’t blame me. seriously, it is not my fault.

And she kind of likes me more than anyone in the house. she makes it a point that i have my own cup and my own spoon. There was once dee drank so called my cup, so the maid said “dee don’t drink, its charmie’s cup.” Then dee will go “make her another cup la.”

And there was once i was at the dinner table with dee, so the maid passed fork and spoons to us. then dee took my spoon, then she said “no, that is not your spoon, its charmie’s.”

=.= i never realised each of us had our own utensils..

It is always “charmie.. charmie.. what you want to eat.. what fruits you want?”

Call me ungrateful, whatever you want, but if you were in my shoes, you would understand.

So hor yesterday my dad left for his holiday. He left while sis and i were asleep so we didin’t get to say bye bye or wave bye bye or kiss bye bye or hug bye bye or even blink bye bye. But then i sms him bye bye.

Mommy was supposed to go to the temple yesterday afternoon, but then lay around the house until so lazy, so we ended up staying at home. Haha, we had lunch at secret recipe and i ate lasagne. it was so hot, i nearly scoulded my tongue. i dunno why garfield likes it, i find it boring. i realized cats like boring food. my cats eat the same food everyday for 3 years. they never complained. haha.

today supposed to got go the temple but in the end didn’t go because it rained. so i just sat in front of the tv and eat my bread. i kept walking up and down the house because i just couldn’t sit still. abit lor lor luen dunno why. then i saw mother kitty sleeping outside. i quietly went out and squated beside her and stroke her ever so softly. it is so comforting, she is old but when she sleeps, she is just like a baby. i felt lifted for a while. i sorta like hugged her and stroke her then she woke up. i like it when she wakes up from a very nice sleep, because she looked blur and harmless.. even when she is harmful, i am not scared of her.

then i went back to the sofa and watched tv. i watched Elizabethtown. i like this show, it is my second time watching it. i like Claire. she is kinda mysterious, like hiding her secrets, but in the mean time trying to help one guy to forget bout his miseries and move on with his life. A very jolly type of girl who looks at life in a very positive way..

well actually i am a bit lost today..

i woke up in the morning feeling very bored. it seldom happens. i don’t feel like spending my time watching tv, its such a waste of time except it is some movie i wanted to watch all these while.

While i was eating my breakfast i saw mother kitty, so i thought of playing with her. she is a bit pissy today, my boredom made her even more pissy. i irritated her, so her claws come out for action and i managed to avoid her attacks. But sometimes its nice to get scratched by her, it is like some training to always keep you alert. At least playing with her is less dangerous than playing with snakes. But the skin gets itchy. But it will be fine after a soapy wash and some antiseptic cream. Most of the times she stinks. but she smells like a cat. Thinking of her made my nose runny already.

Then leo came. seeing him sleep made me even bored. but grey’s anatomy save one hour of my day and i am here writing this post after the show. Now dee and leo are trying to make the tent we bought last weekend. Planning to camp at the porch, maybe make a fire at the bbq pit. Haha. Who cares about global warming, we’ll die anyway, let’s just have fun!

hehe.ok that was wrong. But people must know that if you love the earth, do what ever you want because the earth will not die, it is us who will die!

The earth will be here forever!

After spending a lot of time in a quiet place, or with people who are quiet or talks softly and gently, being in a world of noisy people sure hurts my ear and raise my blood pressure. I hate it.

I don’t understand why my mom and brother can argue over such minute things, like over a packet green tea and japanese green tea -.- Then when dee and me said, why argue over such things, my mom said they were not arguing. But they were making a lot of noise and it just makes our blood pressure quite high. Dee and me are very sensitive creatures. We can’t live in an environment where people argue over small things. Big things is ok, but not small. It is stupid.

We like peace. We vote for peace. I love world peace. I wanna sleep now. Peace.

‘V’

No more yelling. No more shouting. No more arguing. Just plain nice peace.

Ohm……..

it is quite merry this year’s raya at our neighbourhood, many of our neighbours didn’t balik kampung, so it was quite noisy, with lots of big cars and suvs parked by the roadside and kids screaming and playing around. Usually the streets would be quiet on raya when all of them balik kampung, kinda scary because our nieghbourhood has been attacked by thieves at night.. But it was fun.. watching tv with my mom.. make chinese tea and drink chinese tea with my mom, exchange photos from the phone with my dad, polish my mom’s silver jewellery.. disturb dee.. look at my bro..

A day with my parents is not a boring as a day without them. Today dee and me shall make food!!

I have been bored for the past few days. Like really bored. Kept reading Harry Potter (now book four!). I saw HP latest book now only cost about RM 45 plus! That is so cool! But i shall wait until i finish book six then only i buy.  You see, i read the book and watch the movie as well, so i went through the storythoroughly like as though i am learning literature, but i really enjoy how the author writes her book. So easy to understand and it is indeed very descriptive.

Today i was supposed to follow my dad to Gasing Hill to have a walk in the jungle, but i didn’t go because it is so boring. It is always the same routine when we go there. Walk the trail and climb the steep hill few times. SO BORING!! Same old trail, never change, SO BORING! So instead, my mom and me went to KLCC to watch MamaMia! Ok la that show, many ladies and families watch it. I had one problem with that show. The actors and actresses sing the songs like as though because they had no choice but to sing a song more than naturally they feel like singing a song.. Unlike Oliver! The Musical, which is my favourite musical show. Hehehe.

Oh ya, because i am so bored now, so as dee, we thought maybe we want to apply for CA this year at OB. I told myself i don’t wanna go back there but boredom is killing me, so see first la. I wanna be a sista to those young kiddos!! wee~ but it is a bit dangerous to tell my mom, she never like us going to OB..

And so yesterday we had coconut milk, cendol, and gula melaka.

we tried to make cendol the sweet thing we eat. however it turned out bad. we didn’t filter the coconut milk so the top layer kept coagulating and we didn’t add ice and water, so it was thick and the proportion of the sugar , milk and water never turned out right. but anyway i ate two bowls of it. leo leo had one and he was complaining that his stomuch started to give noises. i think he affected us psychologically, so dee and me felt the same too. but no purging happened the next day. hehehehe.

Today supposed to be making people happy but i think i didn’t do it well because i was a bit disoriented due to the festive feelings and atmosphere of the Hari Raya. Mom came home while i was sleeping. dad come home early. usually during the festives times, both of them will be back early feeling tired but smiling and i would usually feel disoriented because the presence of my parent at unsual time disrupts my flow of doing things and i start to feel sick.

Happy raya every badi!

Ever since i started sitting or lying down most of the time, i get tired and sleepy easily. Just by doing some tiny bit of work like maybe watching a movie in the cinema can really drain my energy or maybe the movie was just simply boring.

Anyway, i am waiting for my friend online because he told me to. but but he is not here.. i dunno where did he go..

this weekend was quite some weekend. went for a BBQ party and also for a play at KLPAC. I feel tired. It was nice but i would prefer if i get to spend time with my family. I didn’t really get to really look at them during this weekend. And i am here now, staring at this laptop screen.

Anyway i don’t really like blogging any more especially in my shared blog because people do read my post and start to critisize my point of views and thinking. last time there were no such thing, because i guess not many serious people were hanging around my blog. But as a big girl already, critiques are meant to be taken positively. So yea i try, unless i feel people are trying to pull me down. Haha there are many people like those in this world, talking like they understand, giving you opinions which may not be even true also, just trying to tell you that you will die chasing what you want or something like that.

To win, we must know no fear!

I am supposed to be sleeping now, but instead i am here staring into the empty space here, trying to fill it up with words.

The truth is I am bored and i don’t want to sleep. I have been acting quite weird lately.

Hmmm. Hellu little friendster bloggie. I tried to change my blog’s header but i just couldn’t find for the right one. It doesn’t feels perfect. I tried the dingdong cat, ultraman, eyes, tears, sun, star, sad, happy, deep in thought, but none of them fit into the concept of this thing.

It doesn’t feels frustrating but feels quite nice, it is like trying to find for the perfect one. Trying to see if I can express it in different ways.

And why is it that dee and me is so similar in so many ways but yet different in so many ways as well.

It is actually nice to stay up late because it is peaceful but then it is depressing when you think of the effects toward our health if we always sleep late. But about 95% of the people whom i know sleeps after 1am. I know two friends who sleeps around 10 pm. And they are smart people. Brilliant people. Haha, but not to say others are stupid. Maybe there is a link some where.

Oh no, I am getting sleepy already..

But i want to see the world sleep before me.. It feels like I am flying over the cities and watching the cities light switched off one by one. Then the wind will be blowing at me.. blowing my curls.. and i fly to the moon and sit on it just like how Dreamworks do it and watch the stars..

And i have a harp. So I play the harp. And i have the nice eerie but also a comforting voice singing for the peaceful night to stay and be my company…

I have a baby. His name is monmon. But I am not his biological mom, but he doesn’t calls me mommy. he calls me sister.

I get many emails and read many articles about cramps on your lucky day. mom says drink warm milk, my teacher said eat more primrose oil, i prefer to put a bottle of warm water on the affected area, or prick my finger with a needle so that the pain on my finger will be stronger than the cramps so i forget about the cramp and focus on the pain on the finger and start to think how to stop the bleeding instead.

Hahaha.

That is so not true. i don’t do that. But i think some people actually do that. But the last thing i will do is eating pain killers.

Today is a very hot day. On a very hot day, you would usually want to bathe with cold water. But i bathed with hot water in the middle of a hot day. It felt so good.

It is like a very warm thing going around your body and warms your muscles and ease the pain.

And the pain left. It was like magic!

It would have been even better if i have a bath tub and filled it up with very warm water and add some tea leaves and soak in it. I will smell like tea!